Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Me - Plotting against the evils of time!


Plotting & Scheming
Originally uploaded by ms_mod
I've been away from my little ol' blog for about a month now...feels like just yesterday I was posting about my big adventure to Artfest...time has a way of slipping away from me...I have this wierd sense of timelessness in my life, which is sometimes wonderful and other times frightening...I think it's kind of a like a self-imposed oblivion, created sheerly for the purpose of self-preservation because the idea of time passing is so scary to me...It's wonderful in the sense that I rarely feel that sense of urgency that things need to be done NOW! It allows me to buoyantly float through life with my own gentle rhythym...taking as much or as little time to simply do as I please...You may be thinking it sounds like a fancy pants way of saying I'm a procrastinator...well, I'm that too, but this is different somehow...this is almost like a denial of time itself...denouncing it's very passage by refusing to move at it's frighteningly quick speed...time has no consideration for the moment whatsoever, regardless of how magical, poignant, or important...each moment is just like any other and time shows no favoritism, quickly moving from one moment to the next...this denouncement of time can be a bit peculiar and scary as well...my sense of time is so often skewed and warped that sometimes I will find myself in situations or relationships that I tend to languish in...long after I should, later lamenting why I didn't move on sooner...this fact is sometimes just the jolt of fear that I need to start taking time a bit more seriously...I never want to be that person that wakes up twenty years from now wondering where the last twenty years went...that, to me, would be something unforgivable...I struggle with finding that balance between timelessness and a sense of time's passing...balance is something I struggle with in general, but that's a different post for a different time...I guess I'll continue to buoyantly float, occasionally reminding myself to pick up the pace at least to a dog paddle, in an effort to both deny and embrace time...and find that balance I so desperately crave...

24 comments:

Dawn said...

First off, I love the pic! Very fun! So glad you're back :) Second, I agree totally about time and it's affects/effects on us. Sometimes it's demanding, sometimes it's dragging, sometimes it's just plain ole' frozen (or stuck depending on what mood you're in.) Third, and I hope you don't mind, I posted a blog about my recent purchase from your Etsy shop...check it out :) Xo Dawn

THE CHARM SCHOOL DROPOUT said...

do what you want girl!

dollface design said...

thanks for reading my midnight ramblings you guys!!!

xoxo
layla

etherealwear said...

Time is not real, baby! It's a human construct. Tell the Universe what you want her do to, and you can consider it DONE!

Oh, and got something "fo ya" on my blog this week. All I'm saying is, can we fly your car to Europe? And put a Porsche enging in it? And . . . where can we get 60,000 dollars to enter the fabulous Gumball 3,000 race?

Google it. Go ahead, I dare you!

Octavine Illustration said...

i suppose you can really truly only live in the moment you are in. deciding how that moment manifests itself....mmm. i too have difficulty understanding the rate at which time passes and the consequences for the future that is entailed by this time passing--okay, i lost myself...what a difficult thing to articulate...i think you did a most valiant job. time is just artifice anyway, let your own time guide you.

boopsiedaisy said...

A little too distracted by that gorgeous KNOCK-ME-DOWNER of a picture at this moment, but baby, I HAD to put my tea & toast down just now to type "hooray!, a new blog post!", tell you just how very much I've missed you, thank you for your flickrmail the other day, reiterate again how electrifying that picture is (must scour flickr for the full size version!), & well, just let you know how very much I'm grateful for the chance to read these words. Your writing is terribly beautiful & much like you can work a pair of scissors & scraps into one of the most stirring, stunning paper wonders of the world, you have the most incredible handle on the English language! I could ogle your art for days, ogle YOU for centuries & read your words forever. You remain just as endlessly inspiring as you ever were, Layla. I have missed you SOMETHING HUGE!

boopsiedaisy said...

P.S. I hope it's not annoying to say "oh my gosh can I ever relate to this" but it's so true, Layla. What you've written about here truly resonates with me. Each sand of the hourglass is so precious & it's utterly disturbing not to mention strange & flustering to turn & notice giant clusters of them have slipped through without really even knowing how they possibly could have when it was just this day or that. Time in general isn't even something that I fully understand in how it's so demanding, elusive, senseless & totally necessary all at once. But just... thank you for writing about something so many wish they could put into words & for thinking aloud in such a dear but deep but human way. I sure do adore you, lovely girl!

GMoss66 said...

I'm one of those people that looks back and says "what did I do the last 20 years" (because I still feel 22 not 42). I've done sooooooo much (and experienced things way more than the average person) and yet I've not done enough! There's so much more!! I think it's the creative spirit - it makes us ageless - timeless - yet we see each moment as precious and valuable. Just remember to keep living life and do not let it live you! Take it from this 1966 girl! :)

~dani~ said...

Wonderful post that I can relate in ways. I have a very strange timing that is quite different from most around me. I much of the time just do things at my pace and since I have learned to do this, I am a MUCH happier gal. Things will get done when they are meant to be and things will happen whenever. Such is life! I love this whole way of life. It is so calming to be a tolerant person-wish I found this sooner than a few years ago.
However, when it is crunch time...I basically shut down where I used to blaze trails through it. Still rather relax and take things gently as they come. Thanx for being you.... you rock!I will always wait for you!

~dani~ said...

P.s talented and gorgeous? YOU SUCK!

Dianne said...

great pic! you look lovely :)

one of my favorite quotes is

"time is only linear for engineers and referees" - Craig Ferguson

welcome back, I missed you

dollface design said...

thank you for all your sweet, wonderful comments, you guys are the best!!!

xoxo
layla

AnastasiaC said...

i love that pic of you - so cute!!! thanks for commenting on my blog - your encouragement means a lot as does everyone's support!! i simply adore your collages - definetely need a little birdy one up on my wall! will visit your etsy soon!!

Nicole Austin said...

what a great post (and lovely photo to boot!) ;) i find that i have no sense of time when i'm creating art or spending a lazy day with maya or having tea with old friends. i think that is a good way to live life. it lets us savor the moment because that is all life is. just a continuous stream of little moments. and hopefully at the end of it all, we remember those wonderful moments big and small.
Nicole

Cherry Tree Lane said...

What a delight to visit your blog! I love your ETSY shoppe too!

Art Kitten said...

beautiful picture! Thanks for checking out my shop and blog!

diane said...

Leyla, Hi it is Diane from Art & Soul. How are you? Checking out your blog, come by and see me someimes......
www.rosajosies.com
p.s. enjoyed our convo at the airport SO much!

boopsiedaisy said...

Checking daily dear for brand new bloggie beauty. Love you much! xo!

kecia said...

hello miss layla! i too will say that the self portrait is adorable - great shot! and thanks for the nice comments on my grunge/steampunk charms - i did list some on etsy this weekend (talk about procrastination!!) as for your time analysis - just wait until you (well if you ever do,) have kids! then all of a sudden, you will say, where did my time go? i've always been very aware of time and knew too cherish it well with my children - but still i look back now that they are 15 and 18 and think, "weren't they just little guys?" how did they grow up so fast? i miss them young and feel my window of enjoying those little children has past. (well, until the day the grandkids arrive!) i guess at the end of the day it comes down to appreciating what you did for that day because each day has its own meaning, but when you add them all up, they did to blur together.
xoxo,
kecia

Clarissa Callesen said...

Ok now my turn to tag some wonderful people. So the deal is you link back to the person that tagged you then do the assignment (Which in the name of creativity, I am going to alter a bit) and then you tag seven new people and leave them a comment letting them know they have been tagged.

Assignment : I want to know 7 weird or random things about you but instead of writing them down I want you to express them through pictures. Happy playing for all..

Distressing Delilah said...

Life waxes and wanes..everyone has their own groove..this is yours for now. Love your pic!

Sandra Evertson said...

Great pic, and all I can say to that is Amen!
Sandra Evertson

the butterfly collector said...

I've been learning a lot about time lately! I think the most important part to consider is that we need to live now, in the present,to Love your Art and keep creating and to dream big and take the plunge!
Thanks for visiting me, love all your work and can't wait for new works!

AMIT said...

Ur pic is very good.

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